Why so anxious, darling?

Hey guys, I have generalized anxiety disorder. I would like to talk to someone who is going through the same thing, someone who understands. Please follow or message me, we can make each other feel better :]

It has been a rough week. I really feel like moving away to somewhere distant, another country perhaps. I have never been out of the americas, but I would love to just go to another country and help the poor societies. In my life, I want to change something, I don’t want the ordinary busy life. I want to hold a child in my arms that just needs comfort, I want to see the excited faces of those who have just witnessed new food. I want to make someone happy. I have often thought about what I was meant to do in my life, and maybe this is it. We will see.

I hate the sinking feeling I get when my anxiety starts, I just feel like i’m on the verge of dying. I feel like I have made a complete mess of myself, or made a huge mistake. It kills me that I have to smile and pretend that i’m not freaking out on the inside.

Coworker: I used to be like you, I used to be super smiley, always happy, super sweet and never let anything get me down.

Me: *awkwardly smiling and laughing because 85% of the time, I feel like crying*

Jesus, please help me. I need you especially right now. I pray to you that my best friend does not have cancer. She is amazing, i need this girl in my life. 

I just feel like falling asleep and never waking up. The past couple days I have felt very depressed, I do not want to do anything but be alone. I love my friends and family, perhaps i’m being selfish, but I really just want to sleep all day. This is not good. Work soon, dreading it…

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